Time had flown by. But in some aspects, time has stood still. It’s been such a long wait on this house and not the wait is almost over. I am excited, overjoyed and extremely stressed beyond belief all at the same time. I have never been flooded with such an assortment of emotions in my entire life!
But now we’re here. Almost. 3 more days and we will have a new house. It’s kind of mind boggling. I still can’t believe it sometimes and I’m sure it will still even be awhile before it really sinks in; the reality of it all.
My family has gone through tremendous changes in the last 3 months. Changes that most people will never have to make in the entire lives. Some of these changes are for the better, yet some are very hard to take. It’s definitely an adjustment, blending our family as we have. It certainly isn’t a traditional blending of families.
I always have to be the “grown up” and make sure that I am doing right by everyone. It’s kind of a stressful position to be in. One that is taking a bit to get used to. Taking care of my family was one thing. But you add 3 more people that need your help, support and guidance, and that can get a little trying at times.
Maybe once we move and have more space it will be much easier. I’m hoping so. I’m hoping that we all get through this just fine and life can find some kind of normalcy again. I miss normal. Some days I miss it so much that I wish things could go back to exactly the way that they were before. Before he got sick, before he died. I wish I could go back to the day that my mom moved out and just change it all. Maybe there’s something that I could have done. Maybe he’d still be here. People tell me not to think that way, but really.. it’s impossible.
This wasn’t supposed to be a rant or even a sappy post, so I think I’ll change the focus here before more tears start to flow. Some days I just can’t help it and I guess I just needed to let it out. Thanks for listening.
Now back to the house…. I can’t wait. But then I can. It’s so much to take in. There’s so much work to do. It seems like we’ll never be able to get it all done, even with the abundance of help we’re going to have. I know that’s just my negativity talking, but there is quite a lot that we have to do. The good thing is, I know it will be worth it in the end!
The batteries in my camera are fully charged and it’s in my purse so I can’t forget it! I will be here posting our progress as often as time allows me. Don’t get mad if it’s not a lot, we have a long road ahead of us! But I can’t wait to start this journey in our lives and share it here with all of you! Stay tuned, hopefully I’ll have the first post by the end of the weekend!
