4 years ago today I was shopping for stuff for our new house seeing that we just moved into the house we currently live in. I was having a good time and my cart was full. Then my mom got a call, dropped all her stuff and walked out of the store. I followed, knowing that something was horribly wrong.
Then she told me.
My Grandma had died.
I lost it.
I felt the most pain in that instant than I have ever felt in my life.
I lost the one person that I could always count on.
The one person who really gave a shit.
The one person who I could tell anything to.
The one person who never judged me.
The one person who loved me for me, faults and all.
The one person who would always be there.
The one person who would always take me in.
The one person I could always go home to.
She’s the person who taught me that blood is not thicker than water.
We did not share the same blood. In fact, we were almost the furthest from blood as two family members could be. Her son is my step father. She adopted him as a baby.
But that family bond was strong. We were family in every sense of the word.
Today, and every single day of my life, she is thought about and missed dearly. I lost a part of myself that day that she died. A part of me that will forever be gone. I’m hoping that part of me is with her.
The day that my grandma died, we went to Walmart to get some more things we needed for the new house. The last place I wanted to be was in a store, but I had to do what I had to do. We went through the Lawn and Garden center and I was walking through looking at flowers. This one just caught my eye. It was in the very back and it was the only one of it’s kind. There was not even a similar one around. I picked it up, glanced at the tag and felt an instant peace surround me. This flower was called “Helen’s Flower” otherwise known as “Helenium”.
I don’t care what religion you are, if you believe in God or some other being, but those things don’t just happen.
That was my Grandma.. in a sense telling me that everything was going to be alright. Telling me that she is still here with me; that she is still here with all of us. She lives on in my backyard where that gorgeous little plant sits in my garden.
