It's a sad, sad story and hits so close to home. You see, I had cancer a few years ago, Cervical Cancer. They got rid of it. For now. But the tricky thing is, you just never know if it will come back. And destroy your life, once again. It is a horrible disease that destroys so many lives, and there isn't an end in sight. My mom's friend suffers from Breast Cancer. She's done with Chemotherapy, but she has to take pills every day. My upstairs neighbor has Testicular Cancer. He was thought to have been cured years ago, but was recently diagnosed again when they found a tumor in his neck. He went through Chemotherapy, and recently stayed in the hospital for close to a month after a Stem Cell Transplant. He just got home the other day. But he has to go back again for another Stem Cell Transplant.
This scares the living shit out of me. You see, I haven't been back to the doctor in quite awhile because of fear that my cancer will come back. Stories like this scare me so much. I am afraid to go back, because what if I find out it has come back. What will I do then? See, for me, it's better not to know. But at the same time, it's even scarier. Because what if I can get better. But then again, what if I can't. Honestly, I think I would rather not know that I'm dying. And live my life to the fullest and enjoy it. Instead of sitting in hospitals and going through treatments and surgeries.
Ok, that's all I can say. I can't even write about this without choking up.